15 Comments
User's avatar
Trish Nonya's avatar

Did I mention that I love your name for your Soul Support Squad?

Our financial beliefs are in a class of their own and particularly difficult shed, especially since the world around us continues to reinforce these beliefs in a way that threatens our wellbeing in such a big way!

Thank you for sharing your journey 🩡

Expand full comment
Lavender πŸͺ·βœ¨'s avatar

Beloved Trish!

My goodness, thank you for sharing this! My SSS is my treasured connection to it all, and I lovingly stitched that name together because it reminds me of the endless love, yet the fiercest light and brave connection! πŸ˜†βœ¨

So very beautifully said about our financial beliefs. My goodness, these ruts run deep! Shockingly deep. And thank you for reflecting this back as far as the absolute infrastructure of support these beliefs have from the world around us. It’s absolutely unreal. And at times, deeply shocking. Finances has always been my most deeply seated fear β€” not death, not loved ones leaving, not aging β€” but instead, financial well being. So this experience has been deeply and profoundly stirring ✨

Thank you so very much, truly, for being here with me. It means the world that I am not traveling this alone 🩡✨ Namaste

Expand full comment
Billie Moon's avatar

Lav, this post hit like a deep exhale. You’ve been holding so much, and to see you move with trust, even in the thick of it, feels like a whole shift in vibration. The universe is so clearly supporting you! From the gift card to the timing, to the numbers, to the inner nudge that made you pause and listen. That wasn’t a coincidence. That was confirmation.

I’m just really proud of you! It takes guts to pivot when the old fear scripts try to play. But you’re rewriting them in real-time. Keep going. You’re exactly where you need to be and I'm right here supporting you, gurl. You got this.

Expand full comment
Lavender πŸͺ·βœ¨'s avatar

Beloved Billie,

My goodness, so beautifully shared β€œa whole shift in vibration” is absolutely what is occurring. In purging out my clothing and closets and cabinets, this thought came through me so many times. What once provided comfort, is no longer so. What I believed once provided me security, I realize does not. Yet oddly, with all the releasing and the sitting with it all has expanded my heart.

Thank you for providing this confirmation to me. What we’re able to reflect back to one another is really such a beautiful catalyst to ascension.

Deeply, truly, thank you for being here with me. Your support and love and the light you illuminate for me mean the absolute world. I am so very grateful that I get to call you a dear friend πŸ™βœ¨ Namaste

Expand full comment
Billie Moon's avatar

I'll always have your back, gurl. Just go forth and receive!

Expand full comment
Dr Priyanka Upadhyai's avatar

I hear you thank you for sharing your unfiltered thoughts and feelings.

This is so profound and precious - "It’s strange, in a beautiful and unnerving way, to be writing this in near real time. There’s very little distance between the moment I’m living and the words I’m writing. This is not hindsight wisdom or polished understanding, instead, this is the space between. Literally, the middle of the process; the still-beating heart of something alive and not yet resolved."

The questions some part of you is asking - what if you just sucked it up and stayed, what if you saved more and did not spend on x, y, z..so many of us are asking these questions. Both me and my husband have jobs in academia that pay well but we have found ourselves in a pinch at more than one occasions. I have predictably blamed us but I am coming to understand it is not reckless to want a little comfort when you are living a life that is so on edge. People deserve to be compensated enough so they don't have to discipline themselves all the time. Few of us are throwing money needlessly all the time.

Expand full comment
Lavender πŸͺ·βœ¨'s avatar

Dearest Priyanka, thank you so very much for being here and reading my words. It means so very much to me πŸ™βœ¨

I can relate so deeply to what you are sharing about pay and the wiggle room to not feel rigidly disciplined. I worked as a Talent Acquisition professional for over 20 years and this thought crossed my mind so very many times.

Thank you for reflecting the questions back to me. It’s been an absolutely powerful and humbling experience to see and be at the table with these words, and be willing to hear them without resistance. I am getting to know all the presences (shoutout to my Ego and Superego! Lol) and it’s been one of the most freeing experiences in my life. I am unbinding myself from all the restrictions in place, one by one.

I cannot thank you enough for being here with me πŸ™βœ¨ Namaste

Expand full comment
Tara Deacon's avatar

This is absolutely stunning inner breakthrough!! Acceptance in the storm! Being able to exhale in the middle of chaos is a huge thing!! Its a sign of emotional maturity!! Being able to bring a voice to what many of us have gone through but have been unable to find the words!!

Expand full comment
Lavender πŸͺ·βœ¨'s avatar

Thank you so deeply, Tara! My goodness, I am touched by your words. Thank you for reflecting back to me so many gorgeous things. I'm humbled that I am able to connect to things we all have navigated in our own life journeys. I will continue to unfold here in this gorgeous space on Substack. Thank you for walking with me πŸ™βœ¨

Expand full comment
Tara Deacon's avatar

Everything you have given will be returned to you 10 fold!! πŸ₯°πŸ˜πŸ€© Your a beautiful human!! And I am so grateful to have encountered you here on substack!! Your a blessing to all of us!! Keep being your amazing self!! It is an absolute pleasure to be apart of your journey!!

Expand full comment
Lavender πŸͺ·βœ¨'s avatar

Awww thank you, Tara!! πŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯ΉπŸ₯Ή

You are so kind, and right back atcha!! I am SO very grateful our paths have met here on Substack πŸͺ·πŸ™βœ¨ Namaste

Expand full comment
Tara Deacon's avatar

Me too girl!! Me too!! πŸ₯°

Expand full comment
VedicSoul's avatar

Hello Lavender, thank you for offering us this living, breathing chapter. Your words carry the sacred weight of someone willing to meet life as it is.

Your presence with the process, your willingness to sit with the discomfort instead of rushing to fix it, is a quiet kind of courage. This doesn’t feel like collapse , it feels like clearing. A holy unraveling, making space for what’s next.

You remind we are not the noise of our ego, but the stillness within.

Still here, still witnessing with you.

πŸ™πŸ™

Expand full comment
Lavender πŸͺ·βœ¨'s avatar

Dearest VedicSoul,

Thank you truly for this light you’re sharing here with me πŸ™βœ¨

Realizing the connective power of meeting what is, where it is, is truly something that is almost like a point of culmination. Everything I’ve ever learned or gathered about times of change, transition moments, or points of shift, all come down to this.

Thank you for seeing my courage. Truly. It is really a time of clearing and unraveling. How incredible you shared these words and what’s even currently (in this very present moment) are appearing in my world.

Thank you for being here and for witnessing this with me. It means the world that I am not alone in this evolution. From my heart, Namaste πŸ™βœ¨

Expand full comment
VedicSoul's avatar

To meet what is with presence is the heart of transformation. I see you, I honor you, and you are never alone. Namaste.

Expand full comment