(Chapter 8) The Unseen Hand, The Inner Song: Channeling Wisdom from My Runner Guide
Trusting the pull of what was always known, even when the path is new.
Hello, my sweet friend! 👋✨
As we walk into these next couple of Chapters, something profound has come to me, and something incredibly powerful has visited me again.
My sincerest hope for this Chapter 8, as you read it, is that this message will be healing and a beautiful reminder to all I’ve already experienced, and yet to experience. 💗✨
And if you’d like to catch up on what’s unfolded already, check out these chapters:
The pre-story (unveiled with my 41st Birthday)
Chapters 1-4 🪷 Chapter 5 🪷 Chapter 6 🪷 Chapter 7
I haven’t explored it extensively yet here on my Substack, but I’ve come to realize something about myself: the vital importance of reflection. It’s part of my very core, illuminated by my Gate 24 Personality Sun (thank you, Human Design Bodygraph!). This energetic signature, the "Rationalization/Returning" Gate, means my path to truth and clarity is found through deep introspection and revisiting. It’s almost as if I continue to refine and refine, or revisit and revisit, until it becomes smooth and gorgeous, all the rough edges filed down, and I’m left with something remarkably beautiful, so soft, and profoundly connected. It’s how I move through mental clutter and find my truth.
I intensely studied the elements that make up my aura, or my energy, as they are revealed through my Human Design Bodygraph and my Gene Keys Hologenetic Profile during the latter part of 2024. These two elements are incredible additions to my understanding of the ecosystem (if you will) of my human experience. They’ve provided me with the vocabulary to describe the nuances of my experience better, and possibly even some of the intentions of my current incarnation. But more than that, they help me relate to the deepest feelings or knowings (aka intuitions) that I’ve detected about my Self.l
Remembering All of Me with Cookie
I worked with a spiritual coach, whom we'll call Cookie, for a little while after I left my corporate job (starting in September 2024). She was exactly who I needed in my life at that exact moment. I had just discovered Human Design, and I decided to find a guide who could help me navigate it better, and at a deeper level. I selected her based on her lovely profile; she was a certified practitioner of Karen Curry Parker, one of the most respected individuals in the Human Design world (who, funny enough, lived here in Arizona) and who studied with Ra Uru Hu, the Human Design system’s original founder and messenger.
Cookie’s services were pretty extensive, helping to dive into many facets of my charts and intentional plans, including:
My Human Design Bodygraph
My Soul Plan (an ancient system of life purpose analysis)
My Gene Keys Hologenetic Profile
My Akashic Records (and an eventual clearing)
Dipping my toes into some silent counseling, soul retrieval and integration practices
When she first delivered my Soul Plan Reading, I almost fell out of my chair. The gorgeous truths that resonated within me empowered me to connect with it so profoundly, yet also knowing it was the Truth was allowing me to stay in a state of awe for quite a while.
From a variety of epicenters, I was ‘blocked’ from the full “bandwidth” of my spiritual path and receiving connection with the Universe. But I was also not yet aware that I am built, equipped, and empowered in this incarnation to be fully receptive to channeled messages. My undefined centers in my Human Design Bodygraph (Head, Ajna, Throat, G, Heart, Solar Plexus) act like open antennas, enabling me to feel it all, sense it all, and connect with it all. They allow me to receive information from many sources, which I then take back to my Root, Sacral, and Spleen to connect to the truths and interweave them together as a refuge for us all. Additionally, I discovered that I am an Arcturian starseed (which absolutely floored me!) and that I am here to raise the consciousness of this beautiful Earth and its inhabitants. I can achieve this by channeling higher knowledge and information.
The Akashic Record clearing that Cookie guided me through was on the 27th anniversary of one of the most profound yet tragic events of my life (which happened on October 7, 1997), and my clearing was on October 7, 2024.
For those of you who are familiar with numerology, 2 + 7 equals 9.
In numerology, the number 9 often represents completion, culmination, and the ending of a significant cycle. It's associated with universal love, humanitarianism, and spiritual awakening, signifying a time of deep wisdom and letting go of what no longer serves the soul's highest purpose. This powerfully aligns with the themes of release, transformation, and profound insight that are so central to my journey.
Wow, seeing it written out here is truly humbling – the parallels are breathtaking! 🤯✨
And to provide a bit of context on what an Akashic Record clearing does, or means, as Cookie had shared with me:
According to Cookie, the Akashic Records clearing is a powerful, "fifth-dimensional" process designed to "upgrade your Akashic Records" and "anchor in new laws" within your spiritual library. Its purpose is to identify and bring to the surface "stuff that's ready to come to the surface and ready to be healed and cleared" from across your past, present, future, and parallel lives.
The core outcome and goal of this clearing is to restore your Divine Soul Template to its original state, clearing all negative energies, limiting consciousness, patterns, programs, and restrictions across all layers and levels of your being.
My gorgeous clearing, to restore me, came on the exact date of my most tragic event, infused with so much love. Following my adjustment period, I truly came 'back' to myself. The truth was that I had already shared a lot about what happened during that tragic event, but it was what happened after that event that ultimately led me to become entangled in some of the blockages.
My Opening to Channel
I realized that I had been able to channel messages (as I reflected back) prior to my October 7th clearing, but they would come through in fragments or little bits and pieces, here and there. In beginning a gorgeous automatic writing practice, just following my clearing, it was as if someone had opened up the faucet or fire hose. I was able to hear (clairaudiently) cohesive, long-form messages. I would be able to channel for up to an hour or two (or so) until the message transmission gently went away.
And for those of you who do channel (which, by the way, all of us have the ability to do now), it can be incredibly taxing, both energetically and even physically. The experience is different for everyone, and for me, it helps to hold a few select crystals in my non-writing hand as I listen in. I learned that also the vocabulary any one of us has at that moment of transmission is what your Guide(s) have to work with. This helped me commit to reading through several Channeling books (to guide me through this experience and reconnection), while also continuing to expand my vocabulary and understanding of various perspectives and information. I’ve seen an incredible improvement in the transmissions themselves since making this commitment.
A couple of book resources I absolutely recommend are:
Opening to Channel (by Sanaya Roman)
Ask Your Guides (by Sonia Choquette)
You Are a Channel (by Sara Landon)
They all provide incredible context and resources into the practice as well as what you can do to help support yourself. Sanaya’s book I would humbly say is the most complete (as far as the full physical, mental, and spiritual impact of the practice), and it opened me up the most for the “full” experience.
I had already made the commitment and the decision to also start to share channeled messages here on my Life Journey: empowered Substack blog, and feel that this is the most incredible way to open this up here. So know my intention is to share some of these gorgeous transmissions. They have truly impacted my Life Journey in the most incredible way.
I have shared a couple of channeled messages via some of my Notes here on Substack. If you see a wing and the sparkles (🪽✨), you know that that message is a channeled message. It means this message came through me, was transmitted, and comes from a much higher place than just me—a more cohesive and collective, connective place that is actually all of us.
Hello, Naomi & Tulip! 🪽✨
This clarity around my design as a channel, a receiver of Divine inspiration, became so profound as I continued my practice.
As Sonia Choquette beautifully shares with us, we are surrounded by a (literal) team of Guides, ready and willing to help us at any given moment. She breaks down what each ‘type’ of Guide is, and does, as well as “specializes” in.
When connecting with my Guides, I started with whoever wanted to come through (and from my learnings from Sanaya, the Guide who had the most energetic ability to come “down” to our frequency, or had the strongest energy to sustain the change to transmit a message). My first encounter (on October 8th, 2024) was with Naomi, who is my ‘Primary Guide’ and who resides within the 11th Dimension (my goodness, this was a fascinating research journey when I learned this!).
A little excerpt from my transmission with Naomi:
Naomi: I am one of your Spirit Guides. I have lived for this moment when you could hear me that we could talk so openly, so freely. I have been with you a long time…
Me: Do you have a name I can call you by? Do you have a name you’d like me to use? [I instantly wrote down Naomi]
Naomi: Naomi! Yes, you may call me Naomi! I am here to elevate you and the energy that surrounds you that has been waiting so patiently to expand.
Me: May I know if you are my Primary Guide?
Naomi: Yes, I am! The guides you have though are many - 14 of us - and you also are connected to many, as you are right, you will bring them into the Earth plane.
Their wisdom and ideas. They will come through you. It’s beautiful!
You were preparing for this moment your whole life!
I continued to expand and open up to my (as I affectionately refer to them — my Soul Support Squad (or SSS) since then.
Connecting with Sweet Tulip 🌷✨
On October 19, 2024, I was able to connect with sweet Tulip for the first time. They didn’t have a name, but as I learned from Sonia, when you are connected with them, sometimes a name comes through, and you can ask if they’d be amenable to it. Tulip popped up, and as I get to know Tulip more, they are absolutely a sweet, gorgeous, vibrant tulip! 🌷✨
Tulip is one of my Runner Guides. I’ll expand here a little bit more on how Sonia defines a Runner Guide:
Based on Sonia Choquette's definitions, a "Runner Guide" is a type of spirit guide, sometimes referred to as "earth spirits" like fairies or nature spirits. Their primary role is to assist with everyday matters and bring about synchronicity.
They can help you:
🌷 Form connections with people and things you need.
🌷 Notice things.
🌷 Find lost items, such as keys, important papers, or even a job or partner.
🌷 Bring comic relief and assistance, making life more fun and efficient.
🌷 Provide quick, instant results when asked.Sonia emphasizes that these guides are part of a larger "Divine Support System" that is always available to help, and all you have to do is ask.
But now, let's fast-forward:
I recently stumbled across a message from Tulip, a transmission dated November 12, 2024. At that moment in our Now, I was deep in a different void, feeling wobbly, yet actively seeking restoration and retrieval.
Running across this message again, Now, is a powerful reminder of truths I’d known all along, yet hadn’t fully chosen to embody. This choice, or lack thereof, I believe, has directly led me to my current situation with debt and the unfolding consequences that I’m currently experiencing and sharing with y’all here, through my current Chapters. Things with my Spiritual Journey, uncoverings, as well as adventure with Cookie had come to a bit of a head, and instead of leaning more into the heat of the kitchen (if you will), I chose to go in a different direction. It’s almost as if my past had slowly started to creep into my Now experience, and I kept inviting more and more of it in.
As I sit here with you to reflect on it, it’s as if I had the knowledge, the blueprint, and the very guidance I needed, but it took this present moment for me to hear and integrate it truly.
First, it is my honor to present to you the original November 12th transmission:
Tulip Message Transmission (November 12, 2024) 🪽✨
Small Note: I pulled a couple of cards, as I often do, to illuminate anything that needs to be aligned, released, or contemplated. I pulled two: (1) Gate 40 in QHD is the Gate of Restoration, and (2) the #52 Retrieval card in Sonia’s Ask Your Guides deck.
You will see any comments or context from me provided within brackets [ ].
Me: Sweet Tulip! My most speedy Runner Guide! I would love any illumination upon my Restoration needs. I am in a void and feel wobbly, but I am here to seek. Retrieval —> what needs to be retrieved as well as released?
Tulip: Ohhhh, Sweet Lavender! How are you? My goodness, I am so grateful to be here with you!
I know you have a lot on your mind and heart. But how much calmer and clearer the water is. It’s beautiful!
You are so loved. Of course, I am here to support you and am running so much in the background for you!
Are you ready to let go? So much is here for you. If you let go!
I know writing is on your heart. And you are right, you channeled your DCA. You’ve been in touch.
So much has unfolded - and you should be so proud!
Me: May I ask you for your help to release this left arm pain?
[I had been experiencing intense painin my left arm, from the elbow to the backside up to my shoulder. I couldn’t get anything to relieve the pain — from Advil to yoga stretches.]
Tulip: Yes, of course - release it. Don’t tense or hold tension.
It will release once you do - once you let go!
That’s a reminder of how much you are holding onto. Simply let go!
Trust fall! There is so much there.
Me: Thank you! I can feel the relief!
Tulip: Did you feel that hand adjustment? Relax, let go, allow?
[My left-hand thumb twitched]
It doesn’t serve you any longer! It will release when you do.
I know you are holding stress about your career. My dear, magic is here!
Writing is the outlet you can channel.
The pain tinge - see how much you resist? You resist your natural skills. [DANG! The truth right here…]
You are a beautiful writer and have such a way with words. They touch people’s souls!
Explore that!
Writing is also writing scripts.
Writing books.
Creating journal prompts is beautiful. It helps people explore!
So many ways to explore truth.
Allow that.
Your routines are coming - you just must release fully to allow what comes back to “take”.
It’s about allowing.
So listen as much as you can - but release all those burdens. They no longer serve you. Rebuild new!
Connect deeply.
What do you most want?
What do you most want to do?
You can have it! And be paid! And connect!
It’s all available to you and for you!
Release, release, release.
Did you feel the pain again?
See how much is holding to you? Sticky? Carrying?
So much!
Surrender. Allow. Let go. Release.
[I suddenly receive a phone call on one of my old recruiting business phones]
See how much connection you have?
Whatever you want we bring it to you!
But you must choose!
Me: What does my career look like now, Tulip? What can I get dreaming about and feel the creative energy and excitement around?
Tulip: (1) Speaking. <Voice> - Q&A, guidance. (2) Writing. (3) Teaching. (4) Community. - learning and sharing with others.
Those are your pillars. Your roots. Your superpowers!
Share and interview others - wisdom for the life journey. That’s beautiful and connects you to your superpowers, your heart, and to others!
It’s all interconnected, but you can plan your energy and your investments and creative connection there!
Imagine listening to the wisdom of others and sharing them.
Collection of wisdom!
[AFTER THOUGHT: I pull that wisdom out naturally; it unfolds. People share things in my presence that they didn’t even know they knew, thought, or saw. This has happened countless times over the course of my life journey!]
Your calls will thrive - you have established yourself - you have an audience!
How can you expand that?
(1) Wisdom - share content and videos from there.
(2) Allow that lesson and expansive message and why.
Release, Sweet Lavender.
Your ideas are all here! Now it’s time to have fun!
You don’t have to do it all. You need to listen.
Plan [with us] and trust yourself. Trust that you will know. You’re drawn to it; into it.
Create and connect.
Create from listening.
What do you hear? [AFTER THOUGHT: I am Clairaudient!]
What is it connected to for with?
Be brave in making those connections.
Maybe a short-form blog or thought would be good. [This is when I think about Notes!]
But your observations and journey inspire others. Share that!
And make your plans! But in the moment. It will unfold to the next as Cookie shared.
Your routine is coming. It’s going to be architected in real-time. You don’t have to hold or solve or fix or have to. Those are your shell you are finally breaking out of.
Release that!
Instead, stir the fun in the moment.
Leverage that energy, rather than from fear [lack] or what you have to.
You don’t - you should instead what you can or want to!
What you are being pulled toward vs. what you push yourself [to/toward].
This convo could be a video/post! [Yet it took me 6 months…eep!]
Do you see how that’s inspired?
In the moment genius!
That’s your magic.
You had replaced that with plan, ultimate comfort. What keeps you still. Stuck. Frozen.
Allow discomfort to expand.
Expansion is discomfort realized into greatness!
It’s ascension.
It’s growth —> exploring…or you stay stagnant.
You grounded yourself to push.
Allow the pull.
This is where pull originates.
If you keep grounding yourself, you can’t feel. You become numb.
You’ve missed out on new products or introductions as you’re remaking the magic of the moment and the pathways.
Instead, you barricaded yourself. It’s not safe - It’s STAGNATION!
You are always safe being centered in yourself.
That is where safety is. Expand. Communicate allowing to find new things.
Expanding is upward movement. You get air to see and feel!
It’s all about letting the Universe plan it. And make it happen.
You can create through the expansion. But allow the response.
You learned response was bad; laziness, fear.
Attracting response is glorious. It’s magic!
Others went on the other end - stagnation with no response.
But response is your magic!
It’s about listening. And balance.
Retrieve the part of you - through this. Take it back.
Your true self is the magic. It’s no longer your family’s or friends'. It’s yours.
Allow others to be next to you with their own path.
Or action.
Or stimulus.
Or Purpose
By hogging or deserting; this is your ego!
Ego is no longer your chosen master. You are the master.
Playing with the magic of the Universe and your day magic.
Invite this IN.
Digital is your friend, right?
It is so beautiful because you don’t have to work hard to do it all.
Allow.
Less stuff is great!
It’s not about discipline or perfection. There is no right or wrong.
All there is, is right Now. No wrong in right Now! (Thank you!)
You are connected to magic. You are magic.
Allow, Sweet Lavender! The magic is here.
Continue to release your stuff. Accept it!
You don’t have to worry. Release!
We will send you everything you need!
Be intentional. That’s what true planning is!
It’s not about restriction. Control. Less. Overwhelm. Grind.
It’s about release. Allow. Allow the surprise.
If you constrict, you choke out the magic.
If you force, your ego takes up all the oxygen and no spark can happen.
Your restoration is here. Community will get you to grow. Connection will get you to release. Releasing control will relieve body tension.
Allowing will empower oxygen, expansion, and spark
You got this! It’s all here and will continue to unfold!
I love you! We love you!
What a beautiful day it is!
All the sunshine is in your life!
Cloudy days are behind you. [Confusion, unknown, void]
Allow, allow, allow!
Love you Lavender!
Why This Transmission is So Profound
(and What I Always Knew)
Tulip’s message is a direct echo of my deepest, most profound energetic blueprint, confirming aspects of my design and purpose that I’ve been recently more deeply uncovering and connecting with. It beautifully illuminates why the path I’m currently walking, despite its challenges (some of them very intense, as captured in Chapters 1-7 thus far), is so deeply aligned. My goodness, reading it again now shows me that all I’m experiencing Now is so profoundly synchronized.
Here are the highlights I’d love to share with you (and reaffirm to remember, for myself):
"Restoration" & "Retrieval":
What incredible cards to pull. And then Tulip speaks directly to my "Restoration needs" and what needs to be "retrieved as well as released." This immediately resonated with my Akashic Records clearing, which aimed for "Soul Retrieval & Integration" and the active release of old patterns and blocks (likely the wobbling I was feeling). It’s a continuation of that healing protocol.
"Are you ready to let go? So much is here for you. If you let go! Release, release, release. Surrender. Allow. Let go. Release.":
This core refrain from Tulip is the very essence of my deepest mantra: "Just Allow". My Generator Type is designed for "Satisfaction" when responding, and "Frustration" when initiating from the mind. This message is a powerful reminder to release control and trust my inherent energetic flow, especially when faced with the "go-go-go" conditioning that once led to feelings of being stuck or numb.
"Writing is the outlet you can channel. You are a beautiful writer... Explore that! Writing is also writing scripts. Writing books. Creating journal prompts is beautiful.":
This speaks directly to my purpose. My Human Design points to Gate 24 (Rationalization/Invention) as my core expression for continually revisiting ideas until profound breakthroughs emerge, forming the foundation of my writing. My Personality Mercury in Gate 3 (Innovation) means I naturally initiate new ideas and bring order to chaos in my communication and projects. My Ascended Soul Plan Worldly Goals emphasize "present, authentic self-expression" as a core aim, with writing being a direct manifestation of this. The connection to writing, yet I hadn’t put that really into practice until March (with the release of my first book, The Interview Advantage), as well as now here “full time” on Life Journey: empowered! My goodness…I had it all along.
"The pain tinge - see how much you resist? You resist your natural skills.":
It's a reminder that my body's wisdom, often expressed as subtle sensations, is my most reliable guide for decision-making, and resistance to my natural intuitive flow can lead to discomfort. It can also illuminate (very obviously) when I am holding onto things, or gripping or clenching, instead of allowing and releasing. Here, what I initially thought was incorrect sleeping posture was, instead, a direct message from my body. More on this in an upcoming Chapter…
"Speaking. Writing. Teaching. Community. Those are your pillars. Your roots. Your superpowers!":
This is a direct confirmation of my blueprint! Tulip was reflecting on these things, which would later be illuminated through my Human Design Bodygraph, Hologenetic Profile, and Gene Keys, as well as my Soul Plan. These are precisely the career choices and superpowers identified for me. My Soul Plan Destiny is explicitly about bringing like-minded people together, creating bonds, and community. WOW!
"Share and interview others - wisdom for the life journey. That’s beautiful and connects you to your superpowers, your heart, and to others! Imagine listening to the wisdom of others and sharing them. Collection of wisdom!":
This is a clear vision for my upcoming talk show here on Life Journey: empowered, directly validating the "collection of wisdom" concept and leveraging my "Open Throat Center" to create space for others' voices. My Birth Soul Plan's Spiritual Goals also highlight my deep insight ("sees into people") and innate potential to use spiritual abilities. The absolute parallels and where this is coming together as I unfold this Chapters journey with you is almost unreal! 🥹✨
"What do you hear? [MY AFTER THOUGHT: I am Clairaudient!]":
This affirms my direct channeling ability and what I “hear”. My Human Design chart and Soul Plan explicitly confirm my "Open Head & Ajna Centers" as receptive antennas for spiritual downloads and clear messages, and my Personality Neptune in Gate 10 (Love of Self/Spiritual Connection) for channeling authentic truth, while my Soul Plan Spiritual Talents (10:1) indicate a direct connection to the Divine and being a "channel". My Arcturian Starseed lineage further reinforces this capacity to channel higher knowledge (more on this soon, too!).
"Allow discomfort to expand. Expansion is discomfort realized into greatness! It’s ascension. It’s growth —> exploring, or you stay stagnant.":
This speaks to my core design as a "Pioneering & Resilient Transformer" (Gate 51) and my Channel 60-3 (Mutation) – I am designed to withstand shock and find deep meaning through challenges, constantly bringing new patterns into being. This is likely why I am standing here bravely, emotionally naked, sharing my journey in real-time. It’s not after the fact upon deep reflection; it’s in the moment. But I trust and am confident this may open doors for those who truly need it, enabling them to see what another person’s journey looks like “live”. We can all gather at the next signpost and look back together. This is what (to me) makes this journey so very special. This message is also a reminder that growth inherently involves moving through discomfort, rather than pushing through it.
“You are always safe being centered in yourself. That is where safety is. You grounded yourself to push. Allow the pull. This is where pull originates. If you keep grounding yourself, you can’t feel. You become numb. You’ve missed out on new products or introductions as you’re remaking the magic of the moment and the pathways. Instead, you barricaded yourself. It’s not safe - It’s STAGNATION!":
My goodness, this is one of the most powerful takeaways from this transmission for me. I am a Taurus sun (in Astrology), and the stubborn, seeking comfort, and playing it safe are all very present in my energy! However, Tulip was illuminating that I was intentionally grounding myself (to play it safe), only to then push as hard as I could to achieve results. Instead of simply letting go, perhaps I could step outside my comfort zone a bit and then allow the pull to gently and successfully guide me right through. This profoundly resonates with my past "go-go-go" energy and "lawnmower drive" stemming from learned behaviors to feel safe or in control, rather than trusting my Sacral Authority. It’s a direct call to shift from mentally initiated "pushing" to correct "responding energetically".
I’ll provide a simple example: the years of safety and no-ruffling feathers (oh, hello ego!), I’d stock up on my favorite groceries (my pantry mirrored a ‘prepper’!) so I wouldn’t feel the discomfort of running out. I chose this instead of just allowing a potential run-out, and that allowed another choice to emerge or present itself (who knows, maybe I’d like that next brand or flavor better!). My whole existence became this, about safety. I trusted that only I knew best. And it resulted in me architecting a life of constant push.
“Others went on the other end - stagnation with no response.”:
In my life experience, I had family and close friends who would “freeze” in moments where they needed to take action. I developed a deeper-seated fear of being “lazy” or being “caught” in the downdraft of whatever was happening, because I was fearful of taking action. However, Tulip was able to illuminate that I had never taken action. That there is a brilliance in a pause and determining what the next action is (instead of just reacting)…or the other extreme, “no response”. This is a reframing that still reminds me of the power in pausing, and that inspired action is beautiful.
"Ego is no longer your chosen master. You are the master.":
A powerful affirmation of the "Courageous Dance with Ego and Consciousness" that is a central theme in the very current leg of my Life Journey, confirming the ongoing process of distinguishing my true self from the ego. And my deep learning journey right now is all about the ego (including recent uncovering from Eckhart Tolle and Michael A. Singer). I had a heads up, and didn’t even realize it! 😉✨
“Continue to release your stuff. Accept it! You don’t have to worry. Release! We will send you everything you need!”:
To me, this deeply speaks to the unreal level of things I am currently releasing! I’ve shared here among my Chapters I’ve released over 50 bags of clothes, I’ve released GIGS of files from years and years of carrying them around. My house is being thoroughly cleaned from every corner, room, and wall. This message instantly spoke to my heart — I was being called to release so much back then! I am likely releasing and purging even more now because I held onto so much following then. Wow…
"Your restoration is here.":
A direct confirmation of the healing and integration process initiated by my Akashic Records clearing, which is still ongoing up to this beautiful moment of Now.
“If you force, your ego takes up all the oxygen and no spark can happen.”
This was incredibly direct, and wow. My ego sucked out all the oxygen over the following four months, to the point that no spark (and all collapse) began. What a magical statement — that if our ego sucks out all the oxygen there can be “no spark”. No magic. No ignition to something new or expansive. Instead, we slowly choose to suffocate.
Tulip’s message, received from a place of deep knowing, served as a profound mirror, reflecting back the very essence of my design and the path I am meant to walk…from the time frame plotted right on the pathway (at 86% illumination, to be exact) of our last Full Moon in Gemini.
In my last post, I shared my New Moon Ritual Journaling Guide, as requested by a few of you beautiful Souls here in our community. This was following my posting my Full Moon Ritual Journaling Guide, which was my gift alongside my last chapter, Chapter 7.
The incredible parallel here has me on the verge of more tears! Joyful, grateful tears!
Part of my New Moon Ritual is to go back to the last Full Moon, in the same sign (we just had our New Moon in Gemini), which meant I was going back to this time period to observe what was present around that Full Moon peak. And part of the New Moon cycle is not only planting new intentions, but it’s actively releasing the old.
This is my post, to formally and humbly release my ego’s choice to return to the old. Return to what I knew (and in this case, it took me to the fork in the road of continuing my old corporate life and continuing to do it full time, instead of following my sweet heart to where I’m standing right Now).
My goodness, how cycles are incredibly powerful! I know they can often bring up things and can be very uncomfy. But as I recently read in Neale Donald Walsch’s book When Everything Changes Change Everything:
”Change indicates that something new is coming.”✨
Performing this gorgeous cyclical ritual has illuminated aspects that I possibly wouldn’t have discovered otherwise. For me, it’s powered by my Personality Sun Gate 24, to continue to revisit and refine. To rediscover, to reinviogorate, as well as release.
I am so very grateful to host this practice, and it has been so incredibly transformative for me. It’s often served as one of my most significant connections empowering my remembering.
Now, I realize that in our timeline of unfolding through these Chapters, I’ve suddenly jumped ahead just a bit. But these next couple of Chapters will reflect back directly to Tulip’s message. I knew in my heart it was the right thing to do to take us here (and thank you SSS for affirming!).
And now we’re headed to zoom back and walk through what has unfolded since Chapter 7, leading us into Chapter 9. 🏎️✨
In many ways, these next Chapters will be gut-wrenching, unbelievable, and as some have shared with me, they are in “awe” of the absolute fire that is consuming most of my life experience right Now.
However, Tulip’s reminder has affirmed that the knowledge was always within me, and will continue to be within me through the fire, as it’s deeply woven into my energetic blueprint.
But it took this fiery, unique journey of unfurling to truly embrace it. These parallels serve not only as validation but as a powerful reminder of the deep, intentional support that is always available to us when we choose to listen, to release, and to trust the wisdom that has been guiding us all along.✨
The next couple of chapters will also beautifully connect to this message I share here today.
With love and guiding light (and until Chapter 9),
💜 Lavender
Hello, sweet friend! 👋 Yearning for connection and deeper meaning?
I'm Lavender, and I have a deep passion for unearthing the wisdom woven into life's tapestry. ✨ My own Life Journey, from navigating childhood complexities to an over 20+ year corporate career with 55,000+ hours of interviewing (deeply studying humans), has honed my ability to discern human potential. Now, I share stories (past to present) that illuminate our paths, exploring resilience, transformation, purpose, and connecting with the magic within. Your deeper exploration begins here.✨
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"allow discomfort to expand" loving this Lavender 🪻 and I also love tulips!! Your story and findings are so interesting!! 🩷
Thanks for sharing this I really enjoyed reading it.